Saturday, October 20, 2007

There goes a potential Nobel Peace Prize winner

I've been feeling kind of funny for a couple of days. Been extra hungry and yet lethargic. And sporting three red whoppers on my chin that popped up out of nowhere.

I rummaged through the under-the-bathroom sink area. I seem to remember I had a spare one of these:

And decided I should use it.

I started imagining the possibilities. Fly and a little sibling. They'd be about 19 or 20 months apart. With JP's eyes this time. Fly would be a fiercely protective older brother. I imagined another little baby for me to cuddle and to nurse, to take pictures of and to pick the perfect name for. There'd be a new little person for me to learn. A baby would make us a family of four (my favorite number). This baby would be so blessed to join us, and we'd be blessed by him or her.

I'm not getting any younger, so if there is going to be another baby, I don't want to wait a long time. I had to know as soon as I could.

But then the answer came....

It's not a baby....

It's my first @#%$^&*! cycle in almost two years!

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Blogger Heather said...

Aw, I'm sorry! I know how it feels to be even somewhat hopeful, then discover it's negative.

I thought for sure you were joining the morning sickness crowd.

9:53 PM  
Blogger Brandie said...

I'm sorry :(

10:04 PM  
Blogger Mamacita Tina said...

So sorry. That's an emotional rollercoaster I've been on before. Blah.

10:35 PM  
Blogger Awesome Mom said...

Yeah been there too. Hang in there and try not to hate your period too much.

11:06 PM  
Blogger S said...

I'm sorry. What a letdown.

I'm on progesterone and feel pregnant ALL THE TIME. Which is pretty lousy when you're NOT actually pregnant...

10:13 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ugh. I can't imagine getting all excited about the possibility only to discover you're about to live through a cycle. Blech...I'd want to go back to bed!

10:35 AM  
Blogger Janet said...

It seems wrong that early pregnancy and pre-menstrual can be so similar.

11:14 AM  
Blogger Nadine said...

I'm sorry. I remember this happening before I had my first child. We were so disappointed.

11:16 AM  
Blogger Stephanie said...

Guess what? This was like an instant replay of my last week. I took a pregnancy test, but then my period started a few days later. It's my first period in approx. 2 years due to pregnancy and breastfeeding.

1:23 PM  
Blogger Kristi said...

I have a feeling I'm in for the exact same thing you're currently facing. I expect my period soon, as I stopped breastfeeding about a month ago. Yuck. I hope it's not too awful for you.

2:02 PM  
Blogger Bloggy Mama said...

kick in the teeth is right ;)
Four is my favourite number, too!!!
Hoping things go well for you when the time is right!

2:05 PM  
Blogger Amanda said...

Often followed by a positive. No shit, says the mom of almost three, two of whom breastfed for 17 months+.


And ps, my midiwfe told me after I questioned her in horror two days post heaviest cycle of my life, that no, my cycles wouldn't always be horrifying, but the hormones of breastfeeding will increase your bleeding significantly.

4:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


the return means you can thoughtfully and heartfeltingly (yes i just made it up) try. It sounds like you might be cozy to the idea, maybe you and flydad should have a nice convo sometime in the next 13 days

6:33 PM  
Blogger Jennifer Swanepoel said...

*hugs* to you!!!!!

Wouldn't it be funny if we both got pregnant at the same time again?

7:32 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aw, I'm so sorry.

10:10 PM  
Blogger Cristina said...

Wow. 2 years without a cycle - that's awesome. I got mine back in only a few months even though I was breastfeeding. Still, it sucks to get it back no matter how long you've been without it! My condolences.

12:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know where to chuckle or offer my apologies over no new baby. Bridget has been nursing for (now) 27 months, and I just recently got my cycle. I was a little weirded out the first time it happened - oh how easily I forgot. Life was so pleasant without it ;-)

ps - I still feel a bit queasy before each cylce and start to wonder. But it my case, it's more like - oh s*%t! the vasectomy didn't work!

2:29 PM  
Blogger ohAmanda said...

Ugh. Isn't that the weirdest? I remember when I got mine after bf, etc. It kinda felt weird that I was getting my body back...meaning my little girl was growing up and didn't need my body to support her. It made me sad. How weird is that?!

7:08 PM  
Blogger Sherri said...

I'm so sorry :(! Maybe it's time to try for another!! Mine are close in age and I love it...wouldn't have it any other way!

8:18 PM  
Blogger Cathy, Amy and Kristina said...

I've done that too -- the whole imagined scenario, the emotions, the excitment -- then the disappointment.

But hey, first cycle means your body's ready when you are ...

8:48 PM  
Blogger jodifur said...

I'm sorry. I hope you get what you want soon.

8:53 PM  
Blogger Maude Lynn said...

i went through the same thing! And, after having Baby Puppy, my periods went from annoying to nightmare!

12:13 AM  
Blogger kimmy said...

awww i bet you was a little disappointed... thanks for the comment..


11:50 AM  
Blogger Freckle Face Girl said...

Oh, that is tough. With your body going back to the yucky "normal," perhaps it will not take long. :) Then you'll be in my position & anxiously waiting to get the pregnancy over with.

1:16 PM  
Blogger Staci said...

I can't relate to the surprise and expectancy of being pregnant...but I can definitely relate to the HATRED of receiving that once a month visitor :(

8:05 PM  
Blogger groovyoldlady said...

I have SO been there. Having babies beats having periods anytime!

9:06 AM  

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