Body envy
Friday, March 10:
Going to dinner with the 'rents-in-law turns out to be not such a worry.
However, seeing beautiful women out and about, that's a worry.
Before leaving home, I notice a woman in a magazine ad with what appears to be a 14-inch waist.
Life is so unfair.
In the restaurant restroom, a woman comes out of a stall holding a baby who's probably around 8 months. She is gorgeous and a size 2 with tight jeans to show her little body off.
My jeans are getting tighter, but not for the same reason.
The server is a willowy creature -- another reminder of what I might not ever look like.
It seems everywhere I look, there are all these women who are so beautiful and thin. And even though I'm not really showing yet, I know I am gaining weight and wonder what my body's future looks like.
Some posts in some pregnancy forums I've read recently discuss "showing," and I stare at the screen, reading posts that claim, "I didn't show until my six month," and "I am actually losing weight since I became pregnant."
I just don't think the universe is going to be that kind to me, and I'm beginning to gulp down hopeless despair. Gee, is that dramatic enough?!
Going to dinner with the 'rents-in-law turns out to be not such a worry.
However, seeing beautiful women out and about, that's a worry.
Before leaving home, I notice a woman in a magazine ad with what appears to be a 14-inch waist.
Life is so unfair.
In the restaurant restroom, a woman comes out of a stall holding a baby who's probably around 8 months. She is gorgeous and a size 2 with tight jeans to show her little body off.
My jeans are getting tighter, but not for the same reason.
The server is a willowy creature -- another reminder of what I might not ever look like.
It seems everywhere I look, there are all these women who are so beautiful and thin. And even though I'm not really showing yet, I know I am gaining weight and wonder what my body's future looks like.
Some posts in some pregnancy forums I've read recently discuss "showing," and I stare at the screen, reading posts that claim, "I didn't show until my six month," and "I am actually losing weight since I became pregnant."
I just don't think the universe is going to be that kind to me, and I'm beginning to gulp down hopeless despair. Gee, is that dramatic enough?!
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